My Guilty Pleasure

Some will find it odd..
Some will find it fascinating..
Some will find it incredible..

I lock my door..
turn off the light..
take off my clothes..
and have myself a good cry..

A cry for no reason..
A cry to find reasons..
A cry for all the reasons..

It is a moment when I am both happy and sad..
a moment when I take life's essence and fill my heart with emotions..
Always searching for an answer that hasn't been pondered by my senseless thoughts.
It is tiring..
and yet..
relief starts to overflow from that last drop of tear.
every aching part of my body starts to fade away..
and new kinds of feelings start to well up..
courage..
strength..
hope..
happiness..
like spring time after the cold winter.

And all of a sudden..
that slice of chocolate cake sounds yummy..
A big *sigh*..
A big smile..
A good stretch..
And a little prayer for the finale..

"Thank you Lord for a very nice day!"